Sorry guys that I have not posted anything in a little while, so this post will basically be an update for everything that has happened to me since my last post. As the title implies it's about lessons of life, not just my own either, but of those around me as well.
The first being what I have experienced or more specifically realized. I work in retail which i'll be honest is not a fantastic work environment I know there are several people out there that have worked in the same field though probably not for the same reason as me I don't know that either but that's my personal opinion. The reason I work in retail is because I want to learn more about the Human Psyche and yes I know I can go to college or whatever to get a degree in that, however in that room which you all know what i'm talking about there's a certain tension that cannot be breached and that's why I don't go to college for it. Something that I've noticed is that no matter who you are where you've been or what you've done even if your completely happy you can still be in pain, and it sucks for me because I love to help people I like to play psychiatrist, and on that note a little information about me is the name of this Blog is Kai's Craft Kai being short for ikaichy which is a nickname i adopted back in school, it's an acronym for I Know And I Can Help You. Now back to the main point of why it sucks, and that's because weather I am actually a psychiatrist or not people typically don't know how to share their pain or even really know what pains them though I can see it in their eyes, hear it in their voice, and feel it through their body language and how they carry themselves. After figuring all this out I know now how I can contribute to the world and try and make it and it's population or at least those I can reach better for it and I will actually go to school for it.
A few months back I was torn asunder by something I was fully prepared for and it was not until recently that I figured out why. When my wife left me, she did not really leave me, I mean yes she did physically leave me but after being with someone as long as I was with her you don't easily forget them. I know it's our decision to recall past memories but like she has said in her blog as well "it's what has happened in our past that makes us who we are today we can either accept it and better ourselves or let it consume us" that's not verbatim but it's close enough. From my past I don't just recall the good times like she thinks either I recall the hard and bad times as well, and every day I reflect on those situations on how I could have handled them better or prevented them entirely, yes this is another apology to her for what I did do wrong. Every time I look back at those situations I can actually do better every day, I know right now i'm still not where I want to be, and I can't complain and say it's hard and i don't want to do it, because for the sake of both my sanity and the well being of those around me I have a lot to work on.
On a similar note though, just because I made so many wrong decisions and ignored her as much as I did that never justifies what was done in retaliation and i'm not just speaking from my experience on this. It has happened several times to people I know and even more often to people I don't, and it's not one sided either both women and men are guilty of doing this. That is almost without warning just leaving who they are with, be it that they just disappear and you never hear from them again or one day your doing something together and one party says those god awful words "I think we should start seeing other people". I understand that sometimes it's pretty obvious when things don't work out but even still why not try to work things out and both parties have to contribute, otherwise it's just one party not having any regards for the others feelings or well being and honestly they should have not even gotten into a relationship in the first place. Even then though it can sometimes end in the same result of one person bailing out leaving the other person completely shredded emotionally and physically, and yeah it does physically hurt when you are abandoned like this.
The moral of this post is, and I know this will kinda sound corny, but seriously guys it's us that are the reason there is so much pain and suffering in this world, and I know I can't change much by posting this but if your walking down the street or in a store or something and you walk by someone why not just show a little compassion whether they are happy or not why not just ask them as your walking by "how's your day going?" even if you don't stay very long or don't stay at all you just shared a little bit of your attention for someone you probably will never see again and they can feel that, that for a brief second they were more then a blip, that they were more then just some person on the side of the road. Start with this small thing and the world will start to become a better place.
